So I went to the doctor today to get a second opinion on the fybromyalga he ran every test, blood xray the works. Looks like it very well could be fybro, and I am ok with that I really am, you know what he said? Less stress more sleep! haha um right let me get right on that. The sleep thing I can get and I can fix but the stress thing ummm not so much. He did have some other solutions which are good but for now I am frustrated.
Basically the stress is eating me from the inside out. They say just let it go, so much easier said than done.
Not to bring up the last five years or anything but HELLO someone please teach me how to let go of the stress. My life is nothing but stress. I go to bed crying, I wake up crying. I try to get help and nadda. Yes I am whining and yes I am ticked off! But what else am I supposed to do? I have been on meds I have seen doctor after doctor I have been married TWICE good freaking hell when do I catch a break?!
I have no one, I am that girl that has been taken advantaged of since high school. And you know what I try to be mean and hard and it takes to much energy, so instead I am the nice girl that takes in everything and doesn't get upset in front of any one but behind closed doors I am dealing with so much my head is going to explode all I want to do is get back in bed. The only thing keeping me grounded and on course is my baby I have to keep my cool and do what is best for her.
Who ever is reading this please don't judge me this blog is just my way of venting so I don't explode, some times it makes more since when I read it instead of it all jumbled in my head.
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