Is it ok?

I love my sisters, both of them dearly

I was ok when candice got married really I was 

I was ecstatic when cara got her mission call 8 months ago...

Then cara became Sister Earl.... and the tears came

Is it ok to adore my sister and her decision to serve the lord but still be sad?

She left today and my heart is a little heavy, we have never been close but this last year something clicked and we are very close friends.... and then she left today..... Out loud I was giving her advice and helping her while she cried she was so scared of the changes...... inside my heart was breaking she is my "person" she always knows when I need a phone call or a text, if im having a good day or a bad one and if she leaves I have no one..... and then she left and I just feel sad and empty. How is it that I can support her 100 % no matter what but at the same time want her to stay more than anything? I think maybe I am just as afraid of the changes as she was....

She is getting a great opportunity and I am so proud of her

But I am so lonely already (is that weird)

Watch out New york