It is eating me

So I went to the doctor today to get a second opinion on the fybromyalga he ran every test, blood xray the works. Looks like it very well could be fybro, and I am ok with that I really am, you know what he said? Less stress more sleep! haha um right let me get right on that. The sleep thing I can get and I can fix but the stress thing ummm not so much. He did have some other solutions which are good but for now I am frustrated.
Basically the stress is eating me from the inside out. They say just let it go, so much easier said than done.
Not to bring up the last five years or anything but HELLO someone please teach me how to let go of the stress. My life is nothing but stress. I go to bed crying, I wake up crying. I try to get help and nadda. Yes I am whining and yes I am ticked off! But what else am I supposed to do? I have been on meds I have seen doctor after doctor I have been married TWICE good freaking hell when do I catch a break?!
I have no one, I am that girl that has been taken advantaged of since high school. And you know what I try to be mean and hard and it takes to much energy, so instead I am the nice girl that takes in everything and doesn't get upset in front of any one but behind closed doors I am dealing with so much my head is going to explode all I want to do is get back in bed. The only thing keeping me grounded and on course is my baby I have to keep my cool and do what is best for her.
Who ever is reading this please don't judge me this blog is just my way of venting so I don't explode, some times it makes more since when I read it instead of it all jumbled in my head.

Is it ok?

I love my sisters, both of them dearly

I was ok when candice got married really I was 

I was ecstatic when cara got her mission call 8 months ago...

Then cara became Sister Earl.... and the tears came

Is it ok to adore my sister and her decision to serve the lord but still be sad?

She left today and my heart is a little heavy, we have never been close but this last year something clicked and we are very close friends.... and then she left today..... Out loud I was giving her advice and helping her while she cried she was so scared of the changes...... inside my heart was breaking she is my "person" she always knows when I need a phone call or a text, if im having a good day or a bad one and if she leaves I have no one..... and then she left and I just feel sad and empty. How is it that I can support her 100 % no matter what but at the same time want her to stay more than anything? I think maybe I am just as afraid of the changes as she was....

She is getting a great opportunity and I am so proud of her

But I am so lonely already (is that weird)

Watch out New york